Indescribable;;

Wednesday, January 11, 2006:

Things like these happen all the time.

Skipping lessons, using God's name in vain, running out of school when you're not supposed to, defying the authority placed over you, telling a lie, telling another lie to cover up for the previous lie.. Really, it happens all the time.

And there will come a point in time when you start to face it full blown. And I believe... It only gets worse.

I experienced it for myself today.

A certain group suffering from a disease called Boredom, wanted to be cured from it by walking out of the school gate. You may think, hey what's so wrong about that? It's just stepping out of the school gate afterall. Well... True, but what if you've been given orders not to?

I felt torn, really. Boredom really was a silent killer, and to solve it, we could go out and youknow, have a little fun. But.. We were told not to leave school till it officially ended. Hai. How? ):

So the leader of group picked up his bag, and instigated the rest to follow. I picked my bag up.

The leader got out of his seat, said "let's go lah, don't waste anymore time." Well, I got up too. So did the rest.

But I went in a different direction.

"AYE! Where are you going!" The leader called out to me.

"Cannot lah. It's bad." I replied. I didn't really know what to say.

"Aiyah, don't liddat lah. Just go lah!"

"I can't! It's against my principles."

And after I said that, I suddenly felt peace. There. I said it. I don't know how much of an impact that had on the other group members, especially those who were just following the leader. But it did make an impact on me.

And it struck me. In this world, you gotta be sure of who you're following.. Them? Or God?

Pressures are gonna be great around you. You're either gonna succumb to them, or rise over them. What do you choose to do? It's not easy, living this life in this world.

Today I've learnt many things, and have had many questions. I can't put all of them into words.. And I can't phrase them elegantly either.. So bear with me.

One thing that I realised is that you really gotta stand up for what you believe in. And if you REALLY believe in it, you'll stand up for it. If you don't face up to these "small" pressures, how are you going to face up to the bigger pressures when we grow older?

Another is, is your life really a worship unto God? Is your heart focused on Him, to walk in His will, to carry out the Great Commission? Is your life a good example to those around you?

Lastly, but most importantly.. Do you love God?

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Thanks to Kristi for letting me post this. :) I'm not Kristi by the way. :)

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